When I first read my chart it made so much sense. “Intolerance” and “Deafness” really described how I was in a certain period of my life. I was startled.
After the recent change of my environment, I’d been putting my self in a corner that I have to change. I was afraid of something, and felt pressed and tense. In the session with Tanmayo the anxiety about myself, my work, relationships, my future began to heal. I’m different from others.
I didn’t mean to stand out, but somehow I do, and I was hurt because for me, being different meant being incompetent! I didn’t want people to notice I was different and to reject me, I was so afraid that I became extremely conscious about the reactions of others. In an attempt to fit in, my mind desired knowledge, same experiences were repeated, and as a result I learnt to speak and behave appropriately. But, now that I look back, inside I always rebelled and at the same time resigned myself.
No matter how many years I put on, I’m still like a child inside. I have moods, sometimes I am driven by my emotions.
Now i am able to accept myself and with some encouragement from Tanmayo I’m finally starting to understand what it is like to live in this body.
I want to take more time alone and be with myself. I don’t feel like I want new knowledge, but instead I want to put out what I already have inside, so I’m giving myself more time to spend alone.
The person I’m in love with, with whom I want to spend the rest of my life is very good at amusing my child heart. He is a very caring and reliable person. My doubts are cleared away as I see certain aspects of myself are influenced by my Gene Keys.
From the day after the session, I’ve been keeping relaxation in mind. Going with the flow of life, living the Gene Keys I was given and staying present to my inner voice, and remembering to breathe like Tanmayo says, that will be my endeavour. I’ll trust myself and enjoy every part of me.
I’m so glad with this timely session with Tanmayo.
Thank you so much.